I have been asking myself this question a lot, lately.

I am a principles person.

A “come back with your shield, or on it” type of person.

You do not sacrifice the right to the wrong. Even in the face of certain defeat.

Right mattered.

I’m not so sure, anymore.

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What is a person of principles to do, when the system is so badly corrupted, that the rules not only don’t favour what’s right, but actually punish good, in favour of evil?

How does one reason with systems that are designed to take advantage of good nature & honesty?

You follow the rules.

You believe it makes you a good person. That you will be rewarded with a life worth living, bc you made the right sacrifices.

But what if those sacrifices aren’t rewarded?

What if you continue to struggle, while liars & cheaters around you, thrive?

Even worse,

What if those liars & cheaters use your goodness against you, as opportunities to take advantage of you, while also condemning you for your goodness?

And what if the system around you allows them to do that, & even rewards them for it?

At what point is it reasonable for a good person to break?

When can he be forgiven for clueing in to the notion that playing by the rules is a fools game?

When can he be allowed to use their rigged system to beat them at their own game?

And what, then, does it make him?

I ask because I no longer know the answer.

I ask because I have found myself contemplating whether the person I am is suited to this time & place.

Or whether it no longer makes sense to keep my shadow in check.

It’s a chilling thought.

I think it too often, now.