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@heartsiigh i just saw the dm you sent in June. Idk what FB posts you& #39;re talking about since you blocked me. I don& #39;t have your number cause I deleted it since you seemed to not want me in your life.
I know it& #39;s been months, but wow the tweet about hate reading me
I know it& #39;s been months, but wow the tweet about hate reading me
The emotional whiplash of you saying you have no bad wishes for me feels incredibly hollow based on your tweet. Do you hate me? I don& #39;t know. Will you see this any time soon? I don& #39;t know
What I do know is that I haven& #39;t bothered with you cause without seeing the dm from June all I knew was that you didn& #39;t want me talking to you or your friends, so I didn& #39;t. As far as I knew you hated me and hoped the worst for me. Maybe you even do now cause I didn& #39;t text you
I have no other way to talk to you than this cause I can& #39;t reply in the twitter dm.
I honestly don& #39;t know what you want from me. I thought you wanted me out of your life. But the way the dm sounded idk it was like you still wanted to talk? Maybe I read the tone wrong idk
I honestly don& #39;t know what you want from me. I thought you wanted me out of your life. But the way the dm sounded idk it was like you still wanted to talk? Maybe I read the tone wrong idk
I don& #39;t know how to communicate or talk properly. I am not over my trauma. I have issues and I make mistakes and I over talk and spend too much time thinking about myself. I don& #39;t ask enough questions about other people and I don& #39;t always know what to say or how to say it
I& #39;ve been a fucked up and shitty friend and I put a lot of expectations on you as one of the first best friends I ever had. And that wasn& #39;t cool of me.
But you& #39;ve always made me feel like if you had an issue with someone you would say it then and there, not step around it
But you& #39;ve always made me feel like if you had an issue with someone you would say it then and there, not step around it
I thought if I made you feel uncomfortable you& #39;d say it before it became a real issue in our friendship. I thought a lot of things about our friendship that was wrong cause I didn& #39;t communicate in a deeper manner
Only just this year have I been able to actually break out of constant trauma hyper fixations. Mostly due to the wake-up call you gave me. But my trauma still affects everything I do and say.
And you have always been a scary person to approach. The way you say things
And you have always been a scary person to approach. The way you say things
It feels like you so easily resort to violence, at least verbally, and that scared me. I was always afraid to have a real heart to heart with you about so many things. That& #39;s why I& #39;ve never been able to talk with you about hannah in a healthy way
I& #39;m afraid I was the person who came in and tried to break up a friend group so I did what I thought was best and leave you alone.
I didnt& #39;t want to be the person that makes a group of friends hate each other, but I& #39;ve always felt like I was getting in the friend groups way
I didnt& #39;t want to be the person that makes a group of friends hate each other, but I& #39;ve always felt like I was getting in the friend groups way
Idk if you want to talk to me in any capacity after not seeing the dm for so long. But even if we do talk I& #39;m not going to justify what I& #39;m doing or defend myself.
And if you are just going to keep talking shit about Sean cause you don& #39;t like him, don& #39;t bother talking to me
And if you are just going to keep talking shit about Sean cause you don& #39;t like him, don& #39;t bother talking to me
My boyfriend, the man I love, and someone who supports and loves me completely, isn& #39;t someone you get to talk shit about cause you don& #39;t know him. You never seemed to want to know him. If you did I didn& #39;t know that at least
I never felt like I could tell you just how happy I am with him, or how genuinely in love I am. I& #39;ve always been afraid talking to you about relationships.
But you don& #39;t know Sean. And you don& #39;t know Hope. And you don& #39;t know what our relationship is like.
But you don& #39;t know Sean. And you don& #39;t know Hope. And you don& #39;t know what our relationship is like.
I& #39;m too tired to argue or fight if that& #39;s what you& #39;re looking for. If you want to hate read my twitter I& #39;m not going to block you cause I want you to at least see this thread next time you& #39;re in twitter.
I honestly hoped you of all people should have trusted me
I honestly hoped you of all people should have trusted me
To make decisions that I thought were right. Or at least understand that I wouldn& #39;t do anything to intetionally hurt you or anyone else. I don& #39;t even know how good of friends we were tbh cause there was so much we didn& #39;t talk about
Idk if you were afraid to bring the issues you had with me up cause of my trauma or if you felt I should have known how it& #39;s make you feel. I don& #39;t know your reasonings. Part of me wants to know so I can be a better friend
But another part of me just wants you to be happy in your life and not hate read twitters of people you don& #39;t like. If you don& #39;t want to be friends with me anymore fine, but please sort through your anger issues for yourself
