um so... hello.

this is gonna be a thread of me just ranting about this acc and why i made it and how ive been feeling recently, read it if you'd like but pls ignore if you want to!

so recently, (as ive tweeted before) i went a little ia as i fell sick. there was a covid scare in my family and my grandparents tested positive and i displayed the symptoms and so i've been taking care of myself, and i'm almost recovered already !!!

but things have been very... heavy recently. and when i think about twitter, and i think about this acc,,, it makes me feel even more stressed?

i basically made this acc because i feel like thinker accs are vvv cute and i needed a place other than atiny twt to talk about ateez, because atiny twt is honestly rly toxic sometimes and i've had some bad experiences there and i wanted to get away from all of that!!

but i know that thinker accs are (somewhat) anonymous ,, and so i sometimes think i cant actually make friends on here ?? like everyone that follows me follows me for thinker content, and everytime i go ia or i dont post regularly i feel terrible about it

i just feel like i have to "plan" tweets,,, which gives me terrible anxiety and idk. that wasn't why i made this acc . i love thinker twt so so so much but i feel this overwhelming fear of disappointing people??

which is ridiculous of course because i dont think im relevant enough for people to expect stuff from me but it's just a thing my mind made up :( so yeah. idk. maybe im overthinking this. or maybe im overreacting to my own thoughts.

im not sure what i'll do with this acc, maybe turn it into something else ?? im not sure. it's a great place and i dont wanna leave it so soon