The last year and a half has been huge for productive self care for me. I feel more organized and less chaotic than ever. It’s wild how much you can achieve when you have a supportive family network and aren’t living in financial precarity.

I filed my taxes for the first time in 4 years, am learning to drive+got a car, adopted a dog, finally changed my permanent address to my current home, got out of the service industry, started learning how to code, and am taking steps to figure my mental health out.

It didn’t feel like I was making any progress for so long. I was stuck in such a big rut that it was easier to avoid dealing with the overwhelming amount of things I needed to fix.

I felt like if I didn’t do anything and just ignored my problems I would feel less like a failure? Having a supportive family and steady home+money situation has changed my life. I am my best self because I know I have help if I need it. And because I am so loved.

Today, I realized that things are less tangled and overwhelming. That the things I need to do to calm my brain are attainable and manageable.

Posting this thread for posterity and for the next potential Bad Time ™ to remind myself that I am capable of pulling myself out of it.