“What if the adhd meds chill me out too much so my social anxiety goes away but it makes me say stupid shit that I worry about later when the meds wear off?” - my beautiful, mushy, smooth brain.

First day trying out meds. My head feels like a gently simmering pot of butter. But in a good way.

It feels like someone turned a large, extremely loud fan off that’s been running in my brain for 36 years. But also just really intensely focused. Like I gotta direct myself to the right things because everything is getting 100% of my attention.

It is really intense though. Some of you have reached out to let me know it’ll even out, and I super appreciate that. Overall, dang yeah I think I can work with this, especially if it balances out.

Also sorry for the potential overshare here on the old mental health but other artists talking about it on twitter prompted me to look into it, so trying to be more open because bottling it up and ignoring it for all this time did nothing for me.