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heat waves and its meaning to me, a thread.
tw // mentions of death, suicide, depression, self-harm, hospitalization
this thread is just for me, really. i wanted to write what i& #39;ve been going through and how tbhyourelame1& #39;s fic and glass animals& #39; song resurfaced some of the pain i needed to feel. to fully move on.
this is also my way of channeling my disappointment. people just couldn& #39;t respect her wishes, huh? now this beautiful fic will be deleted, unfinished. dnf shipper or not, it doesn& #39;t matter bc it was about respect. then again, like life, not everything stays. memento mori.
"sometimes, all I think about is you
late nights in the middle of june"
— i lost my best friend to his battle with depression last june. you can imagine how hard the lyric hit. i loved him (romantically) and he was all i thought about until he left the world.
late nights in the middle of june"
— i lost my best friend to his battle with depression last june. you can imagine how hard the lyric hit. i loved him (romantically) and he was all i thought about until he left the world.
"heat waves been faking me out
can& #39;t make you happier now"
— he liked someone else but never minded that i liked him. it was what brought us closer actually, the support for each other despite the circumstances. but sometimes i felt that i couldnt make him happy like she did.
can& #39;t make you happier now"
— he liked someone else but never minded that i liked him. it was what brought us closer actually, the support for each other despite the circumstances. but sometimes i felt that i couldnt make him happy like she did.
"you just need a better life than this
you need something i can never give"
— he was dealing with depression, so i tried all i could to stop him from hurting himself. the girl he liked didn& #39;t like him back too and i couldn& #39;t do anything about that. he didn& #39;t like me back either.
you need something i can never give"
— he was dealing with depression, so i tried all i could to stop him from hurting himself. the girl he liked didn& #39;t like him back too and i couldn& #39;t do anything about that. he didn& #39;t like me back either.
"you can& #39;t fight it
you can& #39;t breathe"
— he was brought to the hospital when his family found him in his room. earlier this year i went to the hospital because i couldnt breathe. the difference is i came out alive.
you can& #39;t breathe"
— he was brought to the hospital when his family found him in his room. earlier this year i went to the hospital because i couldnt breathe. the difference is i came out alive.
"you say something so loving but
now i& #39;ve got to let you go
you& #39;ll be better off in someone new"
— this was the artists& #39; comment on the mv, and knowing that "the song is about loss, longing, and ultimately realizing you are unable to save something" hit. hard.
now i& #39;ve got to let you go
you& #39;ll be better off in someone new"
— this was the artists& #39; comment on the mv, and knowing that "the song is about loss, longing, and ultimately realizing you are unable to save something" hit. hard.
"i don& #39;t wanna be alone
you know it hurts me too"
— our time together was one school year. he was a year older and we both felt out of place in our respective grades, which was why we had each other. he was who i looked to when i felt insecure and lonely. it& #39;s different now.
you know it hurts me too"
— our time together was one school year. he was a year older and we both felt out of place in our respective grades, which was why we had each other. he was who i looked to when i felt insecure and lonely. it& #39;s different now.
"you look so broken when you cry
one more and then i& #39;ll say goodbye"
— march 13, the last day we saw each other, i was the last person he saw before quarantine. the last thing we did irl was hug and he was so sad because he couldn& #39;t handle isolation. i said goodbye, he didnt.
one more and then i& #39;ll say goodbye"
— march 13, the last day we saw each other, i was the last person he saw before quarantine. the last thing we did irl was hug and he was so sad because he couldn& #39;t handle isolation. i said goodbye, he didnt.
as for the fic, i was devastated when i found out about the discontinuation, especially since i read it before the wildness. im not necessarily a dnf shipper, but i find so much comfort in written works. i lost two family members in addition to him. now this. no more please.
