im gonna vent for a fucking minute // suicide, animal death, mental breakdown

I'm so fucking tired of people i care about even a little bit dying or di

-ssappearing it hurts so bad what the hell is wrong with me i don't want to exist anymore why does it hurt so much
i never wanna talk to people again i fucking hate animals I'm wasting my life here i couldnt even stop a family member from killing themselves, i got my fucking dog

killed cause i didn't wanna check on him, got another one hit by a car cause i tried to find her so desperately, and Morse ran away, fuck this shit im so tired of exsisting in this pain all the time and its just getting worse.

i just have been living with the pain for like, the past year and a half, which isn't healthy.

i never ralided how much i relied on morse for stability till he was gone..