one of the most delightful and equally most abysmal parts of being neuroatypical is that first, oh...2 weeks to 6 months or longer of fixating hardcore on a new acquaintance

dreams! dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin when you see or hear their name! wanting to send them gifts! talking to them all the time! Over sharing. Being in love.

beautiful unless it's not reciprocated and then it's TORTUROUS.

I imagine the NT equivalent of unreciprocated-new-friend-fixation is being very in love with your partner, but they leave you and it wasn't mutual. You don't want to creep them out but you want to spend every waking moment together. the pain...

this fucked me up for an entire year once-- the other person too because they liked me but did NOT know how to handle that intensity.

I wish there was a social script for "Can you draw a boundary so I know how much I can indulge myself in your presence w/o freaking you out"

Actually I think there is, it might be somewhere along the lines of "PLease tell me to shut up if I'm texting you too much" but the issue with that is that the other person...will...not...typically.