I am so sick of inaccessibility of online courses.

I am sick of not being provided a note-taker when my accommodations specify one.

I am sick of professors not having captioning for their lectures.

I am sick of not having powerpoint slides to follow along with lectures

I am sick of emailing professors and begging to be accommodated.

I am sick of having to fight to stay afloat in classes

This is why #DisabledInSTEM is so small. Because nobody wants be on our side or fight with us. I have to handle all of this on top of every other responsibility and the weight is crushing.

People say they will try and act like they care in the beginning. But, they brush it off after time as if my accommodations just magically go away?

As finals are closing in, I don't see that there is any way for me to be successful here. And I have done everything I could to fight, but it's exhausting.

Maybe it's just because it's online courses? I don't know but I have zero people supporting me or in my corner

And maybe I'm just having a rough day, but I am in tears right now and sobbing. I am not happy with life.

I am so sick of having to further justify to my professors why I need certain accommodations given the online platform. These systems are inherently ableist to begin with.

My online exams do not allow the timer to have breaks, despite it being one of my most necessary accommodations. I have to beg professors for additional extra time to allow for my breaks as needed. And they make guess how much time my body will need.

My body doesn't give me a warning a week ahead of time and tell me that an hour assignment will take twice the amount of time or more, without even including breaks! But this lack of answer and knowing my body is seen as trying to beat the system.

I know I'm going to have the same fight for Finals and I just don't have the energy to do it right now.