whew, when that coffee hits. . . . . not in the way its suppose to

figures, a coffee that tastes amazing and actually caffeinated me properly, and I damn near spend all that time caffeinated on the toilet. . . probably the same amount time spent there is the time otherwise spent dozing off, so I donno how worth trying to stay caffeinated +

when I don't seem to actually get any more time to actually do things whether its dozing off or bathroom breaks.

just can't win with this staying awake crap, man. I was struggling even before time change, in fact, pretty sure I struggled with time change back in 94' +

and I never did recover from that all these years later, in fact at this point, by how terrible I am at keeping track of time, I'm pretty sure time changes every single damn year keep fking up my perception of time more and more, it never gets better, just worst.

yeah, lets just hypothetically think that I have an entirely foreign internal clock that refused to confine to the constant clock changing. and had it since I was born. that is the only way to explain my time management and my lack of any willpower and need to stay awake in a day

It's 100% NOT lack of self-discipline, nope, not at all.. . . . how did this thread go from oversharing my current predicament on the toilet to shading myself for not being able to function on a timely schedule like an adult