Bro I used to wake up at 12am. Ahomakye o! Then we'd start looking at prices of plots around places where we feel would be better if we built our house there. Heck! We even used to draw building plans! Enobe chat, we actually had it planned. I still have the book lying somewhere

In my room. I remember how her dream house was a two storey, 5 bedroom house. I know how she wanted it to be close to family because she always wanted to visit. I know how she didn't want to a big wedding because they mostly lead to divorces.

I remember how we'd plan our favorite Qur'an Surahs and ayats, and then she'd tell me she couldn't wait for me to lead her family in prayer one day so she could brag with it.

I remember how she loved Pop Smoke and wizkid, ei. Sometimes I'd be on timeout if I talk against starboy o. Sometimes I sit, then I remember all these things then adey laugh my body . Because I was extremely stupid

Her favorite song is RodWave's heart on ice I mean, HOW DID I NOT SEE THIS COMING???!

fact is, love is a lie chale. Herh? Ebe lie o. Ebe lie

This happened very long ago but yeah, I was laughing at myself a minute ago and I decided to let everyone laugh too. So there we go.

Nah, I have to vent all of this.

She'd always forward my tweets to me on WhatsApp, and we'd laugh about it so much. We were so compatible . Or so I thought, we would be on long calls. Sometimes we'd both just get tired of WhatsApp so we'll do sms bundle and then start talking to each other through sms.

Basically we grew up together. She knew all my exes, I know her one ex. We both got tired after sometime and just stuck to talk to each other for long periods of time. One day I decided to pop the question after we had both "fasted from catching feelings". And it worked.

We were magic, you know how the first two months are always amazing when you start your things, yes. Except this time, all the time would be amazing. I'd be on the phone call with her and she'd call her mum by my name. And she'd laugh at herself. We used to do this thing where-

- where we'd send each other vns, talking about what we've learnt about each other so far and how far we'd want to go with it. I loved her and I still do . I made a playlist from her vns that I used to play them every night before I slept. I'd always be at peace.

She was just like me, we'd always laugh at each other. We didn't break up. She honestly DID NOTHING WRONG. Her only problem was having a hard time expressing emotion, she found it hard to apologise, hard to basically show emotions. Her hard girl side was seriously too strong.

So I let her go. It still hurts me, to this very day. But I had to, because I'm a very expressive person. I don't hide my feelings from people. I actually cannot. If I like you, I make it know from getgo. So it was hard, I needed that little effort, and she didn't give it. So yes

Here we are. Here I am,
Hm.

Love is very nice feeling. Ngl. Its very very very very nice chale. But its rare, that's the issue. Its very rare. I found it, and I lost it lool. But, we move.

I still know the words to the third vn on the playlist. She'd go

"hey baby, oh, okay, I meant hey babe! I know you hate being called baby so I'll just say babe. (incessant talking) sometimes I just sit down and my mind races on our endeavors and I'll tell myself " mama this is"

When we broke up, one of my closest friends, a brother to be honest. Knew just how much pain I was in, we used to go take walks around her area, we'd stand by her place. Eventually you'd hear her shout her brothers name, and I'd feel okay. Because I knew she wasn't hurting.

That was all I ever wanted for her, Happiness and Joy. I'm a very strong person. If you know me, you know this lol. So for me to come here and talk this much about one person? CHALE.

I'm not in pain or anything. I was just so happy thinking about all these tonight that I wanted to share it with the TL. Find what makes you genuinely happy, and don't lose it.

She didn't like the idea of a breakup. She hated it so much she blocked me, but I see she created a burner recently, I'll pin this thread. In hopes that she'll see this. I hold no bad blood, I still dey for ahm.

There's more.

I had a podcast running. I know some of you remember, but I stopped. The reason was her. See, I used to send every episode to her right after recording, she'd listen to it. She'd tell me her favorite parts. We'd laugh about it. And then she'd tell me she was proud of me.

And then I'd post it. Now she's not here to do all that lol. I also used to use the podcast app to record my vns for her. Mostly, but now she's not here. And the app just feels like it's chewing on space, but I can't delete it either. Because it holds all the vns.

Sorry I'm not typing as fast, my hands are trembling right now. I started this thread on a good note, I wanted to talk about love. Now I'm stuck midway, I just realised I lost "love". She's actually gone this time. For real. Wow. Okay, so. Hm. What do I say next lol

Wow. I really am in love aren't I?

Listen, if you find love. Don't lose it. And no lol I'm not trying to sound deep, I'm serious. Sigh

One of our favorite jokes was telling each things we used to while apart. "brooo imagine if I hadn't actually confessed love to you" "imagine if we never fell in love".

Loooool, now edey hit me. Now we're not in love so what do I do?

We had plans for my birthday, she'd come over and we'd watch Netflix and other compilations of videos of our chats lol. We broke up two days before my birthday.

Streets is done. Goodnight.

If anyone knows of any funeral or occasion that demands crying happening soon, PLEASE. LET. ME. KNOW.

Herh?