my relationship with my body is 100x better than it was as a teenager, but i didn’t get there by listening to skinny ppl’s lectures on health, i got there by learning from actual fat ppl how to be kinder to my body and that weight is not a moral failing

it was fat-led body positivity that actually helped me develop habits that let me break my cycle of years of restrictive eating and binging and self-loathing and enabled me to make healthier choices *now.*

like, no amount of skinny-person “don’t you just FEEL so much better when you make healthy choices?” ab-flexing instagram posts could break through my 10 layers of self-loathing and actually change my mindset. learning body positivity from fat ppl did.

i didn’t need to hear that i would feel better if i ate salad. i needed to hear that my life shouldn’t be oriented around my size, that bodies are naturally predisposed to keeping on weight and it wasn’t a failure that mine did, that my body was not something to be punished.

thin-person body positivity was just...so ineffective in relation to the depth of my self-hatred. like throwing eggs at a brick wall. i owe my healing to the fat people who gave me the tools to take it down instead.