I don’t think I’ve ever explained publicly

So once I was supervising a bath with my sweet 4 year old

She said “I like to be clean because white people are nice and clean”

I asked her where she heard that

It was from my mom

1/ https://twitter.com/theamyedixon/status/1325693818923048960

So I asked her older sister who was six at the time did she ever hear grandma talk about white people

She gets the most hurt face and says she didn’t want to tell me because she knew I’d be mad

Guess where that kid, who’d never harm a fly, learned the n word

2/

So now my racist ass mom has been indoctrinating my kids and *warning them to keep it from me*

This is after idk how many polite “could you just respect how we’re parenting” and “I’d really appreciate it if you would stop imposing” discussions

My six year old has already learned to cover over the racism to make everyone happy and my four year old just doesn’t understand nuance

When I tell you my parents don’t even know why I cut off contact

It was when that sweet girl said “of course I’m nice, I’m white”

I haven’t spoken to any of my family since that moment. I haven’t explained shit. I haven’t gotten in touch when my face was international news.

And they’re not young. Between age and COVID I’m not even sure if they’re alive.

But “because I’m white” was the end.

And it does pain me but my kids ain’t white, they have a famously Puerto Rican last name

And I’ll be damned if I didn’t immediately close that door.

Family is down to what roots are you planting

And my kids? They’ll learn how to backburn.

In case my family does read this: y’all know how to reach me but this is why I stopped. Reach out if you can do so, I miss you and so do they