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I know I& #39;m usually really quiet on Twitter, mostly retweeting things I find funny and occasionally talking about random stuff on my mind but right now I& #39;m in a weird spot in my life and haven& #39;t talked about this with many people so here& #39;s a story/life/vent thread about my life rn
Going off my last tweet about dropping everything and getting into music production, I& #39;ve been going to university for a year and a half now, two semesters for a jazz performance undergrad, but I decided I didn& #39;t need a degree to be a kickass jazz musician, so i became undeci...
...ded this year. Covid hit during my second semester, but I had been in a spot for quite a while before covid when I had been wondering what I wanted to do other than play music. I realized I had put all my eggs in one basket and didn& #39;t know what else I wanted to do...
... I think marketing would be a good general major that could have a good amount of job opportunities, and that security is so important to me. But the more I think about it, I realize that I don& #39;t like school in general at all, and never really have. I& #39;ve always coasted by...
... without much interest. I& #39;ve known since I was little that music is my passion, it& #39;s what I love most in life and want to share that with people. But I& #39;ve always had in the back of my mind, even since I was really young, and thinking "maybe I can do this...", that it was...
... gonna be a hard journey, and that going a formal route with music, going to music school like I did for a year would be the most secure way. But I ended up hating it. I wanted to study and learn about music in an open environment, that I didn& #39;t feel in the classical...
... school at my uni, jazz program has been amazing though 
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With all these thoughts swirling around in the back of my head for years, when I decided to come back to school during covid, I decided I was going to get a job to help give back to my parents for paying for my school and living (which I& #39;m SO thankful for.) I ended up...
... getting a job delivering pizzas back in mid-late September, which, for the most part, has been a great gig, with great tips and a great boss and coworkers. The only problem is, in these past three weeks, I was set to work 21 hours a week, but 5 people ended up quitting...
... in this span of a few weeks, leaving me in a position where I& #39;ve had to work 45+ hours a week to fill in for them. As glad as I am about my boss being super open and understanding of this stress on me, it& #39;s still kicking my ass. I will be working less very soon which is nice
With all that, what with me not knowing what I wanna do, and having a shit ton of work this past nearly MONTH, I& #39;m super behind on my school work! Granted, I was already behind, which is completely on me, I& #39;ve had procrastination problems since I was little and...
... it& #39;s finally coming back to me the worst it ever has. I have nobody to blame but myself, but at this point in the semester, I& #39;m wondering if it& #39;s even worth it to try to catch up. I don& #39;t even know if I want to keep going to school...
... Dropping out from school is a huge, risky decision to make, so if I was to do that I would do it in the most calculated way I could, with a plan of what I could do afterwards. That plan right now would be to try to keep living in my uni city and keep delivering pizzas...
... full-time (the money is great but idk if I could live off of it) and start seriously studying music production on my own. I& #39;m starting to realize that I can write and produce the kind of music I want on my own if I can invest in good equipment and a good setup...
It& #39;s so risky and I don& #39;t know what I want to do, but it feels good to at least get some of it off my chest.
This thread got kinda long doe, thanks for reading :)
