Once lived a girl in the world of millions...small town,big dreams,overachiever for the age,best athlete,best student,best in both curricular and extra curricular activities....now living the life at best achieved dream of doing post grad in neurosurgery +

And one fine day glass broke down of delusion that you can do everything in life....just going to scrub for surgery of a patient for clipping of aneurysm and first symptom appeared...felt a gush of blood both pv and pr...i thought it was a dysentey +

And took medicine for it and told my attending on call jokingly about it and she took a cbc sample and ran a test it showed derangement severe and we thought a error and ignored it,within few days brusies start to appear on whole body,blood started to ooze+

From every orifice of body,now red alarms,went to physcian and trial of tests starts...away from home..away from your best friends,those dreadful days,took off from work as a doctor knew each n every possibility,every fear, was known+

All agreed upon to do a bone marrow biopsy with certain small sizes tumors in abdomen,chest cavity deranged blood profile.i decided not to tell my family coz it was too soon to tell them may be result come negative may be positive ...went alone +

Got my bone marrow biopsy two weeks back and git result yesterday nite and boom it says AML(acute myeloid leukemia) stage AML03 (promyleocytic leukemia)it reads....

I as dr knows its prognosis its treatment and its not good ...still processing still not told my family my best friend ...still dont know what to do...onclogist says prognosis 6 months to a year....here no one knows me no one knows the struggle+

Just felt like telling you two people @sidharth_shukla and @ishehnaaz_gill and i shall be greatful to both of you for making my life a happy place...you two people are simply love,and deserves all the best in world

Just want to let you know there was girl anna who loved you two the most...zindagi rhi tu zaroor milenge kbhi @sidharth_shukla & @ishehnaaz_gill All the best for your project
#SidNaaz

Hy @ishehnaaz_gill and @sidharth_shukla i am back with my dhukhry...i know you will never know about this...but it seems to be my venting space.Wish me luck we are going to doctor to discuss treatment options and +

Lets see what they say....and still confused how to let my parents know...its a mess.........
And just want to share something ky yh mera khawab tha bachpan sy neurosurgeon bnana lkin kia hai ky today i might perform the last surgery of my career until+

We find a way to treat it...you know the kind of high you feel you say every time scalpel please...you made a incision with scalpel that is the feeling i would never feel again coz apparently if i get even a nip during surgery i might bleed out+

dont know what to feel n what not to feel... @sidharth_shukla and @ishehnaaz_gill i loved you both individually and together...u gave me memories enough to cherish in a year..may you get the best of world All the best for project n ignore my rantings above

Haye there @sidharth_shukla and @ishehnaaz_gill again and may be for the last time...u know what i did shunting for hydrocephalus in a 2 year old baby boy and it was successful....but it was last one for now as i have to take a long long break which is not +

Going to end soon....i dont see any hope any light right now..but you both @sidharth_shukla n @ishehnaaz_gill both servered as lighting in my life along with KHTM through the last whole year..+

You sidharth ashok shukla and shenaaz kaur gill both deserve all the happiness in world..as it was never my thing to stan celebrities but here i ended up .you both are the most precious human beings who need to be protected at all the costs.+

If these writing ever crossed your path which will never just know anna loved you both @sidharth_shukla n @ishehnaaz_gill the most like a family member,u people are part of my family.i pray for your happiness health and good being...signing off for now

Hello people @sidharth_shukla n @ishehnaaz_gill hope whenever in enterity you find it,find this in good health and all the hapiness.so i am here again to talk to you both as for me its just therapeutic,so khn py thy hm..+

So its the third post admission day in hospital and my amma baba and all family including me are pretending to be very much strong smiling etc but they and mecant meet actually coz in isolation u cant meet them+

Ab aisa hai ky currently life aisi ja rhi hai ky hm hain hospital hai...lots of epistaxis hai bht si blood transfusions hain n oper ay Pnemonia hai so we will wait for blood count to built up and proceed to further treatmemt..+

Things are going at snails speed barely keeping up...wesay kia sochty ho gye ap dono @ishehnaaz_gill @sidharth_shukla ky apko kia lena dena is series of events sy lkin jb tk himat hai tb tk mn btati rahon gi+

Wesay i heard punjab trip went very good koi na wait kiya kitna miss hi gya koi na dekhon gi sb dekhon gi lkin ab mn thk gyi hn mn jaa rhi hn lkin yaad rhna i loved you @ishehnaaz_gill n @sidharth_shukla the mostbtany mn kia jata hai

Hiii.... @sidharth_shukla @ishehnaaz_gill khety ho gye roz aa jati hai lkin kuch arsa tu aisay hi sunana pary ga....so trip to the memory lane “Anna” my amma used to call me ever since i know she calls me this....and i watched +

The fault in our stars n sudden a revelation struck to my mind that an imperial affliction hazel’s fav book charcter was anna n she died of lukemia n it hit me hard......its like nature is giving the final decision.

Sometimes being privileged is great but sometime its a curse too...i have a supportive family and the resources and knowledge about the disease n resources to get the treatment and its not working and there are people out there+

who can survive but dont have resources for the treatment. never able to get this division....but this is the irony and this is the bitter truth.i was privileged all my life n i was grateful but wasn’t enough to appreciate the air we are breathing with...

Breathing with intermittent oxygen supply made me realize how much blessed we are...unable to taste water made me realize we should appreciate every little thing in our lives. +

May God bless you @ishehnaaz_gill @sidharth_shukla with long and prosperous healthy life.wesay bhi knsa pta lgna hai ky koi anna thi bhi nai lkin this is me venting out coz sometimes being pillar of strength to people you love tires you out.

Actually when even your are so unsure if you are going to make through the weekand because u don’t know when yours counts of hb and platelets are fallen so below that you will get the transfusion or not.n that ticking bomb of wait for results and when ..+

Its returned with hb of 4,transfusion repeat.the pricking for each time sample withdrawing is awful and some times want to run from yourself too coz only one thing u have known is winning and this time my friend this battle not going to win....

Hyy @sidharth_shukla and @ishehnaaz_gill did u people miss me? Nai bhi kiya tu bhi chalye ga knsa ap dono ko pta mera, ab bnda shiqwa bhi kry tu kia krylkin kher ab suno meri kahani jo to be continued thi

4th day post induction chemo py chal rhy hn with the blood transfusion,bht mushkil din thy kat gye marty marty bach gye.
ab hm bone marrow transplant ky liaye match doondh rhy dekho kis ka hota match...