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as someone who is having identity crisis I& #39;m having mixed emotions right now after this episode TL:DR
#GayaSaPelikulaEp06
#GayaSaPelikulaEp06
growing up, i would say na malambot talaga ako, i think. duhh naging mother kaya ako sa chinese garter
it was way back in elementary when things began to change between me and my parents. everytime we have family gatherings they& #39;re always telling me na "wag ka nga lalamya lamya di maganda tignan, sayang talino mo kung ganyan ka lang rin naman, ayoko magkaroon ng anak na bakla"
of course i was scared of it, the thought of being disowned, it was scary. so all i did was follow their advice and do good in school and we& #39;re at peace, again. although i distanced myself from them
but it doesn& #39;t work that way isn& #39;t it? no matter how hard you try to conceal yourself, there& #39;s still this feeling that something is missing
ff: high-school, i met this girl and i would say na nafall ako as in. we became close friends, these are the days where i told myself na maybe it& #39;s just a phase (but then it& #39;s not)
of course my parents were happy "naks lalaki na ulit ikaw" and friends we& #39;re like "wag na kasi torpe bat ayaw mo pa ligawan"
i did not pursue her was because it felt like i was cheating on her even though my feelings for her was real. it just doesn& #39;t feel right
i made some nice gay and queer friends 9th grade and or course, parents we& #39;re disappointed.
i told myself na gagalingan ko na lang sa acads, ending, lahat kami grumaduate ng shs with honors and i think masaya naman parents ko don
funny thing is, doing good in school felt more like a need just to prove yourself to them and up & #39;til now i& #39;m still not sure on how my parents would react to that, im wanting to graduate college as fast as i can just so i could get out of this house
ps. the reason why i said na im having identity crisis is because im falling for a guy sa squad namin na kasama si ate girl but everytime na im having solo friendly dates with ate girl kinikilig pa rin ako,,,โ ++ alam ng gay friends ko straight ako so iโ don& #39;t know..
also, im new to this sogie thing so please educate me if needed. 
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