to be transparent i'm really having one of those weeks where it feels impossible to be positive. between existential doom every time i think about the election, to the fact that I can't work, to looming winter. It just sucks. & i'm trying to tell myself its ok to feel like this

I try my best to be appreciative of what I do have, I just go though periods where my mental health is so low because of all of the what ifs. I feel like i've lost so much of my sense of self this year and I don't know when I'll find it again

i just miss when I felt like I had any sense of control over my life. I miss when it felt like /my/ life, mistakes and all. I miss feeling human.

I try not to unload on the TL all too often...but I've been known to not open up so I feel like expressing it to everyone. Because i know i'm not alone in this feeling. sending love to everyone

anyway i ordered sushi because i deserve it, and I'm going to watch scrubs. that's self care right?