You’ve stopped romanticizing the signs & synchronicities. God don’t send mixed signals. There’s more unfolding within a connection but you’re no longer bound to false ideals centered in projections of possibilities that negated the reality of your experience. You’ve made progress

You can trust your intuition the first time. You can ask God directly for the 411 & know you’ll receive the confirmations (Sometimes warnings). Your ancestors don’t send mixed signals. Stop sending yourself mixed signals. Be weary of making messages what you want them to be.

You see them clearly. You also see that version of yourself that has been telling you “you don’t actually have to do this anymore. You have healed and you can’t deny the residual implications from previous relationships. We don’t have the capacity to do their work.”

You might also be interrogating some of the ways one of your parents engaged love & relationships. Yes, there are similarities. There’s a narrative. Side note, there’s a relative in the ancestral realm that has answers & that can help resolve the grievances and promote healing.

There’s something about your essence that will always call for you to root yourself in the kind of self-regard that knows you don’t do any of this alone & every relationship you engage MUST (not should) support your healing & be life giving.

There’s also a shifting context calling you to show up fully for yourself and be confident in your decisions & persistence in not settling. Lol you did settle for something. Don’t pout. You’ve seen this movie. You’ve played this game. You had front row seats to the concert.

I’m not buying the idea that you don’t know what to do or that you’re stuck or that you’re always going to be doing this etc. No the fuck you’re not. Get some spiritual maturity & esteem about yourself, please. I’m not saying you’re not confident but you need to be bold.

You also need to move away from the need to validate the things that you already know to be true. Try to lessen your intellectualizing of this process. It takes a lot more energy & labor. Give yourself mental rest. Accept something as is & honor your willingness to surrender.

There’s a scripture that charges us to “Trust in God & lean not unto thine own understanding.” What and Who are you leaning on? Who loved you into this moment? Who’s prayers sustain your purpose? Name them. Lean on them. Identify your sources of empowerment.

A savor complex is antithetical to your mission. The only person you’re responsible for saving is you. There’s nothing conservative about giving yourself freely & I need you to be clear about what’s already been given. The cups is full. Is the overflow requited?

Listen, if the tree has fallen what are you gonna do? Goliath headass don’t even belong in this forest. They’re out of context. Meanwhile, You hacking wood to burn for the winter whole time Spirit said “that wood hasn’t been cured & it’s about to get dark. Let me keep you warm.”

This is not The Game of Thrones. Heavy Empress/Emperor energy but in the context of fighting for power/control- you have that already. Most of this fight is internal. You already know that. You have the gift of discernment. You KNOW. Fuck the future outcome, for now. Be present.