My takeaways for today since I wasn't really "emotionally involved" sa ganaps:

• A'tin fears the thought of others leaving, and it shows in the usual reaction the fandom has with the slighest hint of a new group. +

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It's not just being threatened, but more of the fear that /others/ might stan a diff. group and go. So we seek assurance by tweeting, reminding ourselves that the boys went through this etc., and it's ok. What's sad is that sometimes it includes degrading others.

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• P-pop rise is a debatable topic, and I want to be excluded from the conversation haha not much to say. Malayo pa ang tatahakin.

• We unconsciously become the people we despise, and the kind of people we protect the boys from. +

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The boys received doubts and piercing words from others, and yet we become the "others" in another group's story.

We say "focus on your faves", yet we become shady too. How unfortunate of us to become the people we hate.

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• We're yet to learn the art of deadma. Seryoso, bakit 'di na lang palagpasin kung pwede naman?
Naiinis tayo sa mga asong tumatahol (dislike the term, tbh), yet we give them food — attention. No wonder they keep on coming back.

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• Balik sa unconsciously becoming the people we hate. . . ang sad naman nung pinagtatawanan itsura ni ate girl kesyo "he has taste". C'mon, galit sa umaatake sa visuals ng boys pero ginagawa rin sa iba. She was wrong, but bullying her doesn't make anything right.

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• We "water" issues. I don't get the point of bringing issues from other sns here, and not only do we reply (which is enough if the purpose of call-out is to educate) but we qrt tapos kita ng followers then we mob. +

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Hurtful words come from bashers but the media who bring it to the boys is us. Something that could have been dealt with nang maayos umaabot pa sa boys dahil sa pag-up tas wala naman sinasabi maganda, mura lang huhu i don't get it.

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• I have been SO undisciplined with the works I have to do. Sinayang ko lang rest days ko this week :(

• I suck at coherence. Sarap idelete, sayang natype haha from journal entry to sermon?

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Anw, this ends here. Dapat journal entry 'to e, pero ewan ko biglang third to first person amp. Gusto ko lang itype thoughts ko pero ang gulo HAHA and as it turns out on this thread, I may be more emotionally involved than I thought.

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Good night! Might delete tomorrow, or not, will think about it.

Nagmukha lang akong self-righteous e I mess up quite a lot din. Anw, journals could be self reminders too. I'm talking to myself now haha I should sleep.

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