Tbd maybe, continuation from one of my last posts @ 12 am
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🧿" title="Nazar amulet" aria-label="Emoji: Nazar amulet">

but just
I never really thought I’d ever like, have what I have now years back, & especially last year

Bc I’ve been dealing on my end with a /lot/ of hardships & also having fought to stay alive literally too, bc—

chronic illness took a lot from me & has been super difficult to cope with

But with bein involved in the NSR community as I am now & also the support I’ve gotten & everything, acknowledgement I’ve gotten of my work & being able to interact w some from the VAs
& being more open w

others & making connections & everything

& hell, even somethn like ppl liking my nsr sona I made for it which im not used to admiration for chars of mine much

I just.

I’ve just been emotional today over it since its really been setting in, & i’m just really happy for all this.

I can’t express my gratitude enough bc I’ve been dealing with a lot of hardships & even now still am
Ranging from healing from some really dark stuff in my past thats happened, learning to love myself, family issues, as well as illness like i mentioned earlier
& a lot of that had

Really been taking a toll on me & my work

But this helped turn things around in a good way & is helping me w getting through that stuff & also gives a sense of being welcome & just

Its a feeling I can’t properly express (plus bad w words myself)
& I’m really thankful for it https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🧿" title="Nazar amulet" aria-label="Emoji: Nazar amulet">

Main reason I may delete this thread later is bc I don’t like being /too/ open abt anything personal I have going on or emotions too—personal reasons.

But it’s something I wanted to get out there, & even shared w others earlier in a vc lmao

But yeah, just.

I actually kinda

caught myself crying from thinking & reflecting on this cause its something I’m not used to & the overwhelming amount of happiness ive gotten from it all too.

Its. A lot lmao.

Words really can’t express enough how much all this has meant to me & how thankful I am for it https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🧿" title="Nazar amulet" aria-label="Emoji: Nazar amulet">