i spent the 2016 election with my best friend and my chiropractor (yes i am jewish, why do you ask). we made dinner together, tv on. my best friend dissociated on the couch. i'd never seen her do that before. my chiropractor turned off the tv and took out collage supplies.

the big joke of "make a plan" from the washington post article yesterday about winter depression, well, as much as i hate to admit it, having a plan can be helpful. it made me feel better to make a collage and wash every dish in my chiropractor's house

i am asking people in my life what they might need thinking forward to the coming week. for myself, i think it makes me feel better if i have groceries in my fridge, particularly if i know that there are things i can grab and eat with minimal prep

i'm going to try to get some laundry done, too, and put new sheets on my bed. if i don't experience a crisis, then it is just me doing things that are generally good. if i do experience a crisis, i will have some supportive architecture to keep me more comfortable

it feels absurd to suggest planning in this horrible year. we all made so many plans and had them smashed to bits and scattered to the winds. i know. even so, present me can hook up future me just a little bit, and that will only ever be good.