I wanna talk about body shaming today. This is gonna be really long as I’ll be talking about my experiences and how it has affected me. So bear with me.
It all started when I was form 1. I remembered liking this one guy from church and he knew that I liked him. One day, he approached me and asked me to be his gf. I was excited and I said yes! After 1 week, he broke up with me and told me he got together with me was because -
- a friend dared him and he fulfilled it. And he told me: “Who would ever date you? You’re so fat and ugly. When you walk, the whole earth shakes like an earthquake is happening.” I held my tears and I was heartbroken.
How could someone be so cruel? Just because I was fat that doesn’t mean you have to tights to make fun of me and called me ugly. Not only that, many of the people whom I thought were my friends from church mainly guys always teased me and called me names like elephant, gundu.
You guys don’t know the amount of times I cried because of your mean words. It might be jokes and fun to you, but you don’t know the trauma and the shit I went through. I cried every Sunday when I went home and I dreaded to come to church.
Not only those incidents. Even random people like my parents friends or better yet relatives, when the first thing the see you after a long time, they’ll be like “You gained weight. You should eat lesser or exercise to fit into nice clothes. Be like your sister. -
- See, she so slim and pretty like model. Learn from her.” I hated those comments but I had to swallow in and just smile but I wanted to cry so badly. I don’t understand why people see outer beauty but they preach that inner beauty is more important. Hypocrisy.
Those comments you people said to me really affected me. I starved, exercised like mad but still I can’t be slim like my sister. I tried all sorts of ways, just because of your remarks and still it doesn’t reach your expectations.
Because of you people I have super low self confidence and when someone compliments me, I will simply just tell them you’re lying because I am ugly. I see myself as this fat and ugly person because of your remarks.
Because of you people, I can’t even love myself properly. The mental torture you put me through for more than 5 years really affected me. I am having depression and anxiety partly is because of this. It’s really difficult when throughout your whole life you got used to this -
- teasing and body shaming that you can’t practice self love properly. I am trying my best to love myself but it’s really hard. I can’t seem to see myself as beautiful. I still see myself as ugly and fat. I forgave those people who did that to me but I will never forget.
Don’t ever body shame someone. Think before you make a remark or say something because you will never know what or how your words can affect them. I really hope this thread helps someone to think before body shaming someone. Do share it around and let everyone know.