The thing that sucks about all of this is how much I would reward myself with alcohol when I had to take care of all the things I didn’t want to do or finally the time I had away from ppl after work

Basically, “ok get this all done and I can get a drink. Man, this week sucks time to go to the bar on a Friday night. I’m sick of every body, I need a drink to calm my nerves”

Now I’m just trying to keep my irritability bottled up. I just act calm on the outside, and would wait until I could drink, not that’s not an option