man i was doing so good at writing my piece and then i had a cool fight with my dad and now i can& #39;t
i could go apologize and he will stop but i don& #39;t want to because that& #39;s just one more bit of pavlovian training that if he throws a tantrum he gets whatever he wants
like i can either lie and apologize and keep the peace or i can maintain my stand and we can fight all night and he& #39;ll just think i was being a bitch for no reason. a real lose lose situation
like he tried to have one of his "conversations" with me about the tension in our household and i was like. pretty pissed about it because he was being an asshole, so, in an ADMITTEDLY PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE way i was like
"i recognize that. i was just upset because i woke up today to you screaming at mom" which was true but like, yknow. & i couched it in the "him waking me up" thing to save his feelings a bit because the actual problem was "i don& #39;t like it when he yells at mom" but that won& #39;t fly
but now he& #39;s like all pissed that i derailed his "honest conversation" by talking about being woken up too early, which is NOT what i was angry about. so like, my options are:
- apologize falsely, letting him think his behavior will get him whatever he wants
- apologize falsely, letting him think his behavior will get him whatever he wants
- don& #39;t, fight all night and have him think i& #39;m a selfish bitch
- confront him, with literally unknowable consequences ranging from "he accepts what i say and makes an effort for a few days" to "he throws something precious to me out a window"
- confront him, with literally unknowable consequences ranging from "he accepts what i say and makes an effort for a few days" to "he throws something precious to me out a window"
the best part is i found this out by listening to him complain about me to mom. like he complained about me asking him not to yell at mom to mom, and like, it& #39;s not like she can defend me so she was basically forced to be like "you have a right to yell at me as much as you want"
disordered eating tw
i think the solution to this problem would be to stop eating for a couple days that would definitely fix it
i think the solution to this problem would be to stop eating for a couple days that would definitely fix it
i love to exert some tiny amount of control over my life
anyway i probably should have trigger warned this thread so like. parent stuff tw i guess