i found an old note, that kind of note. its from earlier this year and it& #39;s so weird to read it now. who i wrote about, what i was feeling, what i took, no one really knows about it. it was just one of those time where it silently fell through and to think that wouldve been it :/

im probably gonna delete this thread soon but im not really doing better. its been the same cycle for months and i thought i broke it but i was wrong. im kinda just left to repeat it for other people and if it kills me it kills me i guess