Having a psychotic break

Likley because antipsychotics have intolerable side effects or don’t work. I don’t know what to do other than suicide. It’s like your head is being crushed, slowly

It’s kinda sad when I am falling into the absolute pit of psychosis and you just say “I am having a psychotic break” on the tl and people treat it as if it’s completely normal

Another psycho tranny lol. Maybe Lacan was right?

Even if he is, I don’t think that theory has much in the way of treatment. I feel like psychosis is a permanent condition which only degenerates over time (like dementia) unless you take meds that have some terrible unbearable side effect (often coercively)

Shit this is going to be a lot to delete later when I have a mood swing or whatever. I can hear rain “pan” around me like direction-hallucinations?

Oh fuck yeah lol nearly slit my wrists before but all the blades were too blunt so I just punched the wall until I heard my fist crack

When you psychically approach the end of your life you feel it like approaching an end of a movie. Lots of memories you forgot about come back, life given narrative coherence. It’s a retroactive illusion sure but when you know you know.

I am going to delete this thread at 7:30pm EST so enjoy while you can. If nothing else, psychosis is certainly entertaining