I want to stop:

1. Telling myself to not get excited about someone because I fear that things don& #39;t work out when I get too excited about them.

2. Not believing it / being shocked when people like me and are interested in me romantically.

3. Believing there& #39;s a time frame for things when it comes to love or whatever...so let me keep quiet because "it& #39;s too soon to tell her I like her"

4. Feeling like I have to "upkeep" my masculinity in relationships because I believe that& #39;s why they were attracted to me in the first place, because of my "masculine side"

Finally,

5. Feeling like I don& #39;t deserve to be pursued, desired, someone to romance me, make me feel special, Y does it shock me every time I& #39;m asked out on a date? Y am I surprised when someone wants to do something for me? Do I not think that they should? Why do I think that?