It’s a hard one sitting with yourself and coming to terms with the fact that you’ve been a victim of these predatory/grooming relationships because the perpetrators are very good at assuring u that your IQ & EQ levels aren’t above par that’s why you can’t even stand ur age mates

These relationships also come with financial security that’s also almost unsustainable. You end up being a 18/19 year old from an average family to now only partaking in things that you/your fam cannot financially sustain. Now the next predator reeks this and hops on

The cycle repeats itself until you see it for what it is. It’s not that u can’t date guys your age coz they’re childish/unrelatable, trauma has just conditioned u to believe that these older guys who have been through a lot & put you through the same are the only ones that get u

Until u get to a point where u realize that “YOU ARE SO MATURE FOR YOUR AGE” isn’t a compliment the better. When u r deemed to be too mature for ur age that means a part of ur childhood was robbed from u & the longer u take to accept this narrative the longer you’ll take to heal

Anyways young girlies , no one is jealous of you and the fact that you only date older (wealthier) men , some people genuinely don’t want you to sit with those traumas years from now like they are. Your conditioning has made you eligible for some honest introspection, do that.