TW: this thread mentions suic*de and abuse
analyzing seungho hours:
what we got from chapter 57 is a glimpse of seunghoâs upbringing, it scratched the surface of such a well thought-out character and it explains so many scenes that weâve seen before
analyzing seungho hours:
what we got from chapter 57 is a glimpse of seunghoâs upbringing, it scratched the surface of such a well thought-out character and it explains so many scenes that weâve seen before
first of all these two pieces of dialogue just break my fucking heart. knowing that seungho was once lively and happy and one of the most admired teens in the region, I couldnât help but wonder how we couldâve gotten such a different story knowing that things couldâve been better
imagine if seungho grew up to be a bright scholar, not angry or violent, someone who the townsfolk would admire and not gossip about, someone who didnât have to sleep with multiple people every night because he couldnât find pleasure in anything else
he never received any genuine love as a child. the man who was supposed to raise him broke him instead, and traumatized him to the point where even the slightest mention of him sends him into restless nights. we still donât know specifically what his father did to him
but it was torturous enough for him to even attempt ending his own life. it makes sense to us now why seungho chose to cut off any communication with his father, not even considering reading a letter that was sent to him and immediately burning it away
it explains why seungho sent his father a painting of him up two nobleâs assholes at the end of season one, knowing that it was the very thing his father would despise the most. which was honestly one the greatest ways to say fuck you imo
the closest thing to affection that weâve seen seungho receive is from mr kim, the real father figure that kept seungho from completely losing himself into madness, but as much as mr kim cares for him, it would never be received as genuine love due to mr Kimâs status, so seungho
thought that mr. kim was just obligated to take care of him. weâve poked at him for being emotionally inept & incapable of understanding nakyum or showing him love, but it makes sense, if seungho never knew what it was like to be loved how would he know how to love someone else?
based on what weâve seen, seungho had two potential partners to be with, jihwa or nakyum. forgetting nakyumâs pov and just looking at the story from an outsiderâs perspective, seungho and jihwa being together would make more sense. Here are potential reasons why:
-theyve known each other since they were kids and are a part of each otherâs past
-jihwa shares the same status as seungho, making their relationship not frowned upon by the other nobles
-jihwa is better at seggs(sorry nakyum baby but itâs true)
-itâs a convenient relationship
-jihwa shares the same status as seungho, making their relationship not frowned upon by the other nobles
-jihwa is better at seggs(sorry nakyum baby but itâs true)
-itâs a convenient relationship
-jihwa just knows seungho and his secrets and probably has the most knowledge of seunghoâs past
-they were probably each otherâs firsts in lots of things
sharing that bond forever
-jihwa probably understands seunghoâs trauma more than anyone
-jihwa actually likes seungho
-they were probably each otherâs firsts in lots of things

-jihwa probably understands seunghoâs trauma more than anyone
-jihwa actually likes seungho
yet even with all this, seungho still chose nakyum. a lowborn at the bottom of society, someone who had to sell paintings of porn in order to survive. he has no status, no money, no family, heâs inexperienced and canât even read. on top of all that, nakyum admired someone else
so how could seungho choose nakyum over jihwa? he couldâve lived an easier life by accepting jihwaâs love and staying with him, but seungho just couldnât help but fall in love with nakyum
seungho saw through all of this and realized that nakyum is kind and sensitive, he cares so much for people and still managed to have a pure soul after being treated like dirt his entire life. nakyum has so much love to give but never had someone that gave him that same love back
this is why Iâm excited to see how the next chapter will play out, especially with seungho being at his most vulnerable and physically at his weakest, this means that were bound to get some sort of conversation to happen between them
regardless of whether they do anything sexual or if they just cuddle(praying for it), the atmosphere is going to be so much different now that nakyum is aware that seungho does have feelings for him.
if we think about it, this is seunghoâs first time loving someone and this is nakyumâs first time being loved by someone, which is why their relationship is so beautiful to me because we get to see how nakyum will slowly allow for seungho to open his heart again
and nakyum will tear down the emotional walls that seungho built as a defense mechanism, letting seungho feel the same happiness he had as a child. we get to see how nakyum will finally know what itâs like to be properly loved by someone, and how he wonât be abandoned like before
the slowburn of the story may be hard right now, but how often do we get to see a manhwa take its time to develop characters at a realistic pace? weâre so lucky that we get to witness their relationship at this point because the payoff will be so so fucking satisfying to see,
and I canât wait to see them finally be happy together, when they both realize all they needed was each other in the end. Fin.