sometimes i think about scales, and about balance. i& #39;ve not always been a good person. i don& #39;t even know if i& #39;d call myself a good person now, though in various ways i& #39;m better than i used to be.

can being good ever mitigate the bad? can my version of events be the true events?

i remember bad things. off hand things said or done to me, things that just slip out in arguments or conversations, things that get forgotten, i remember. i can& #39;t ever forget them.
i can& #39;t be the only one like this. it& #39;s just maths that i& #39;m the bad thing for someone else.

i play back all the bad things i& #39;ve ever said or done, accidental or deliberate. i wonder if those things are as bad as i think they are. i wonder if they& #39;ve been forgotten by the wronged parties.

i don& #39;t know what the point of this thread is. i just think about this a lot