sometimes i think about scales, and about balance. i've not always been a good person. i don't even know if i'd call myself a good person now, though in various ways i'm better than i used to be.
can being good ever mitigate the bad? can my version of events be the true events?
can being good ever mitigate the bad? can my version of events be the true events?
i remember bad things. off hand things said or done to me, things that just slip out in arguments or conversations, things that get forgotten, i remember. i can't ever forget them.
i can't be the only one like this. it's just maths that i'm the bad thing for someone else.
i can't be the only one like this. it's just maths that i'm the bad thing for someone else.
i play back all the bad things i've ever said or done, accidental or deliberate. i wonder if those things are as bad as i think they are. i wonder if they've been forgotten by the wronged parties.
i don't know what the point of this thread is. i just think about this a lot
i don't know what the point of this thread is. i just think about this a lot