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i don’t think we talk enough about how disoriented kylo must have been after killing snoke. like him being alone with his own thoughts for literally the first time ever in his life. how this newfound control of his thoughts might have made him want to seek more and more control
hence his really bad proposal to rey 
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥴" title="Woozy face" aria-label="Emoji: Woozy face"> and how he wanted them to rule the galaxy after the one being who had been plaguing him and holding him back since his birth was finally gone.
like i feel like he’d finally reached a spot where he had full power over himself, and literally just his own head, and was extremely desperate to not lose that. i don’t really think kylo ever wanted control of the galaxy, he wanted full control of himself and his actions
which, if you think about it, he’s literally just. never had. at any point in his life. his parents and luke wanted him to be a perfect jedi which he was never going to be capable of anyway and he was definitely aware of that. snoke wanted him to bury his light and
basically exterminate anyone he deemed useless. so now ben is the only one determining where he goes and what he does next and he’s completely unprepared and overwhelmed bc he’s never been able to or had to do that before and he… well, kinda screws it up.
but i just have so much sympathy for him in that moment bc i truly just think his decisions and word choices were born of fear, not malice
also keep in mind that he most likely thought the resistance would either 1. lock him up or 2. use him as a weapon just like snoke had. so https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🙁" title="Leicht stirnrunzelndes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Leicht stirnrunzelndes Gesicht">
