Thread by @hopefulem, So some #OCD thoughts. I consider myself recovered, as far as possible.. [...]

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So some #OCD thoughts. I consider myself recovered, as far as possible.. on a day to day basis it doesn& #39;t bother me, ai still get intrusive thoughts and they don& #39;t particularly alarm me and I find it fairly easy to shrug them off. >

However, recovery is a constant work in progress. It requires continuous effort. Im having my kitchen done currently. Last night, I came in from wk & walked around barefoot. This morning I woke up to realise in the cold light of day that the workman had obviously had an accident>

There were blood spatters on carpet I& #39;d walked on, doors I& #39;d touched etc. This is an unplanned exposure& it& #39;s the biggest test. Sometimes, as I said to @gerbillady I& #39;m weary, I don& #39;t want to have to fight all my impulses & instincts, I just want to give in & do compulsions #OCD

Yes my anxiety wasn& #39;t too high, BUT I still have beliefs around it all...have I contracted something? Even though I& #39;ve cleaned it all, I know that& #39;s where the blood was so now I want to avoid the carpet etc. These are the entrenched, ingrained beliefs I have to be mindful of #OCD

It would be so easy to lapse back into it all, it requires an almost hyper vigilance to be aware of what stories and beliefs I& #39;m allowing my brain to follow. #OCD >

So, I& #39;ve cleaned the blood up myself (could have just told the kitchen company to do it), I& #39;ve tried not to clean excessively& I& #39;m forcing myself to walk on that carpet in my socks &touch the doors. I& #39;m not anxious exactly but I definitely have a feeling of resistance #OCD

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