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cw// rant
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No bc i feel like no one fucking understands how i feel
I’m not even fucking tired im just mentally tired of everything and people trying to think they know how my fucking brain works.
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No bc i feel like no one fucking understands how i feel
I’m not even fucking tired im just mentally tired of everything and people trying to think they know how my fucking brain works.
I just want to sleep, i would rather sleep it all away than drink it away. Drinking it away just makes me sadder and with a huge headache
Tw// self injury
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I shouldn’t feel ashamed to be mentally different but i do, because I literally cannot handle my emotions and if i can it’s through hitting myself repeatedly and even then that doesn’t shut up the mean words in my fucking head and im sick of feeling it
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I shouldn’t feel ashamed to be mentally different but i do, because I literally cannot handle my emotions and if i can it’s through hitting myself repeatedly and even then that doesn’t shut up the mean words in my fucking head and im sick of feeling it
I wish I didn’t have a mental disability, I don’t want to have internalized ableism, but would it be easier if i wasn’t on the spectrum? I mean then i could understand sarcasm and jokes better and i can stop fucking injuring myself whenever i feel like its all of my fault.
You can just ignore this thread I just am overwhelmed right now and I don’t want to bother anyone so I’ll delete this too after
Tw//depression
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Would it be easier if i was a normal 19 year old? That constantly feels happy instead of the days turning sour every other day? Im sick of my fucking depression i really am, im tired of feeling angry im fuckkg over it
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Would it be easier if i was a normal 19 year old? That constantly feels happy instead of the days turning sour every other day? Im sick of my fucking depression i really am, im tired of feeling angry im fuckkg over it
Like I started today with bagel bites man.... it was a good day 
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😕" title="Verwirrtes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Verwirrtes Gesicht"> and then bam the dinner happened and it like idk how it overstimulated me and they kept trying to say they understand no yoy fucking dont. How would u feel if you had to sit there with the whole family while a +
Family member keeps judging others for things and can’t say shit because it feels like you’ll ruin everything if you speak up? Like honestly fucking tell me. Because it’s becoming too much and im tired of being taken advantage bc i easily forgive and I easily freak out
No matter how much research someone does,it still wont be understood, because it feels like hell sometimes and it sucks when no one actually fucking gets why you can’t properly fight your emotions without being angry
Like sure, its high functioning, but it’s still fucking here, and it’s easier to hide, but it hurts to be at war with myself it really sucks
Like i have never felt this horrible in my life since the breakup (I’m okay with that part now,I’ve moved past) and i just want to go back to normal im tired of feeling like this
I just want to stay happy and go back to the happy person everyone knew me as and hide what this all is so people don’t see it, but it’s not a good method but it hurts more to hide it cause its lying and I don’t like to lie
Like HELL i tried to drink it away and it didn’t help me, it just made me out of focus and with a enormous headache, at least i know i cant become an alcoholic https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😔" title="Nachdenkliches Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Nachdenkliches Gesicht"> bc I can’t handle alcohol
lemme continue this thread bc im in my feelings dknvkvbsvkdbf
like lord again,,, it would be so much easier if I wasn& #39;t on the spectrum, LIKE SO MUCH EASIER??? I could get jokes more and I can stop hitting myself peria
