CW//Sexual Harassment and Grooming
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Idk if I've done this already but I thought I'd talk about my story/history of being groomed and.. harassed. And my mistakes during the past in terms of relationships. I learned the hard way and I regret some actions of the past (1/10)

So when I started going online, I became close friends with someone who had headmates. Or at least I think he did, but I suspect he faked it. We became close, I got together with someone, while doing ERP frequently with this headmate of his. That was a mistake (2/10)

I was.. 13 or 14? Didn't understand it know better. Damn was.. that a mistake. I didn't realize what I was doing. Hell I enjoyed it.
But then, I got a gf. I still for some reason did these ERPs. I had no feelings for the headmate I was... fucking. (3/10)

Eventually, I realized "no. I have a girlfriend. This is wrong." So I started saying no. But, I was just starting... The super horny part of puberty. And I loved RP. I didn't understand what I was doing though. And then this person -in rp- would seduce me (4/10)

I didn't think of blocking or anything. I didn't know what I was doing. All I knew was it made me horny and I knew I could get off to the ERP. So I kept doing it. I tried saying no but every time, the same thing, and I was too.. stupid, to understand what was happening (5/10)

It was only recently I blocked him. He had charisma, so did this headmate. He somehow convinced me not to block him over and over again. That was my mistake, because I kept trying to be nice and tell him I was blocking him. And he'd convince me otherwise
(6/10)

Now, my most recent Ex, her name was Emma. She was awesome. But, this guy got HER TOO. so she ended up cheating on me for a day. And then later I met Lexi. For months I had been losing the feelings for Emma. She wasn't making me happy, I couldn't make her happy (7/10)

That.. was hard..I didn't even know what was happening
But.. I met @alixna2or and everything made sense. I.. didn't want to though.. I didn't want to lose what I had. And.. well, then I kind of got together with her. Emma later found out
And that was that
(8/10)

I still hate myself for cheating, twice. Although the first time wasn't my fault. I.. ugh. I hate it.. I see all sorts of tweets about how cheaters should die, and then I look down at myself and think "am I horrible person?"
Long story short, I've.. (9/10)

I've had a rough past. I think I learned a lesson

And to all the people I've hurt, either out of anger or fear, I'm so sorry. There's nothing I can do to make it better

And to anyone reading this. Thank you, and take this as a lesson
I learned the hard way
(10/10)