

wow i got sad

on the surface it seems that everything is going perfectly smoothly & itâs almost like everything is pointing towards this idea that you SHOULD be happy, but youâre simply not and thatâs more than okay. it feels like something is just...missing.
and i think you know that something has to give, something has to change in order for you to build momentum up again, for you to feel like yourself again.
you might be on this search for balance right now, trying to find equilibrium so that everyoneâs happy, but maybe you feel lost on how to do that. maybe youâre trying to find balance by doing the thing that is âlogicalâ or ârationalâ but now is not the time for that.
maybe itâs time to shift perspective from the logical and focus on the intuitive. what is your gut trying to tell you? what is your inner self whispering to you?
i think a part of you is struggling to make this change or to release this situation because itâs like...youâve come so far, youâve built so much at this job or with this person, or with this major at school itâs like you donât wanna lose everything youâve built-
or the memories youâve created. and thatâs perfectly valid. thatâs a very valid concern to have. starting from zero can sometimes be really overwhelming & sometimes one can even worry about what others might think & one might not want to hurt other peopleâs feelings.
and i get that. and itâs very compassionate of you to be considerate of other peopleâs feelings. but should the consideration of other peopleâs feelings be at the cost of your own lack of fulfillment? your own dissatisfaction & possibly even restlessness?
and are you really starting from 0 if you have gained all of this knowledge, experience, and wisdom from what youâve learned at this job, school, environment, or in this interpersonal relationship?
people always wanna pin you as the âself centeredâ sign or the âegotisticalâ sign & sure maybe to an extent thatâs true, but we both know you are an incredibly generous and loving sign who wishes to please & entertain those that you love, even if it hurts you.
itâs not fair to you to play a performance that makes everyone but yourself happy. so maybe itâs time to begin putting yourself first and do the thing that yes, might be scary & uncomfortable, but in the long run might be whatâs best for your wellbeing.
the number 9 comes up for u which is indicative of completion, a cycle ending for a new to begin. that can be scary at times, yes. but necessary. life is cyclical. also, one of 9s âweaknessesâ is sacrifice. be mindful of sacrificing so much of yourself for others.