yk, i& #39;ve spent a lot of time thinking "wow, it& #39;ll be cool when i& #39;m 18 to be able to interact w my over 18 mutuals on this app without them feeling the need to be overly cautious!" but i JUST fucken realised... that& #39;s how I& #39;M gonna feel interacting with my minor moots in 6 months

also, is that not wild? my "childhood" will be *technically* over in about a half a year. i get that age is made up and nothing will fundamentally change in me when i& #39;m 17 yrs and 364 days old v.s. 18 yrs and 1 day old but like..... i& #39;m very scared to be honest lmao

my lovely friend jasmine turns 18 this december and, god love her, i think i& #39;m more stressed out about it than she is. i& #39;m sure these are normal feelings but i& #39;m kind of having to properly face them now for the first time in my life and i& #39;m just !! a little spooked is all. i& #39;m ok

i think it& #39;s especially jarring considering i spent so much of my adolescence not EXPECTING to get to this point in my life, so now that i& #39;m at the hard part where i essentially have to work my ass off for 2 years to get into the course i want,,,, it& #39;s overwhelming sjsjskjjsjsjsj

but, it also helps that i& #39;m in a good place rn, or at least today. feeling very loved. i haven& #39;t been in a bad place since i fuckin clawed my way out a few weeks ago and i just feel good things in my universe rn. i think everything will be ok for a while and i& #39;m happy to say that

this thread took a few turns in different directions but eh, i& #39;ve never been good at staying on topic (i& #39;d make an excellent politician).
tl;dr, i am afraid of becoming an adult but life is manageable rn and i am grateful for it