Hey everyone,

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I& #39;m going to give you all an update because you deserve that much from me at least.

For a while now I& #39;ve been struggling badly with my mental health and last night I reached the breaking point where it was literally DO or DIE.

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I sat with my parents and gave them the worst news a parent could hear, which was "I want to die and I& #39;ve got a plan in place to do it."

We talked for hours and tried to come up with a different plan that didn& #39;t involve a one way ticket.

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I can& #39;t promise or guarantee that I won& #39;t give up at some point, but I do promise I& #39;m gonna keep swingin until I have absolutely nothing left.

I promised you & #39;Christmas,& #39; and that will happen.
Until then, I& #39;ll be taking a few days break from Twitter to gather my thoughts.

4/4

I& #39;m sorry to fall apart on you all, but I feel like I& #39;m in a very deep hole with a spoon to dig myself out.
Massive thankyou to @kimrhodes4real for being the mother I needed, and giving me just enough kick to keep going.

I& #39;ll be back in a few days. Hopefully.
Take care
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