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I don’t think I’ve had a spiritual fluctuation like I did this year . I was pulled to my max and I badly wanted to hear God, I kept seeking but he was so quiet than I have experienced .
To be very honest, I don’t think I truly sought God with my whole heart.
To be very honest, I don’t think I truly sought God with my whole heart.
I’d seek God and spend time in his presence just to advance in my walk with him not because I love him or wanted to spend time to know more and do his will .
His presence became more of “a visit” . It became somewhere I’d Visit now and then rather than a dwelling place .
His presence became more of “a visit” . It became somewhere I’d Visit now and then rather than a dwelling place .
I’d seek him to get filled, to help strengthen my faith because I knew I was weak. It became transactional . I totally forgot those who seek with there hearts will find him . I had a heart filled with complain and worries and of course out of the heart flows the issues of life.
For while all I did was complain which weakened my spirit.
“The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God.”
Romans 8:7-8 NIV
“The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God.”
Romans 8:7-8 NIV
I could feel myself lose grip of every brick i held onto. It felt like I was loosing my spiritual sight , images became blurry .
I wanted to hear him so bad at the same time i kept complaining forgetting when it’s noisy you’ve gotta silent the noise to hear.
I wanted to hear him so bad at the same time i kept complaining forgetting when it’s noisy you’ve gotta silent the noise to hear.
I remember rebelling on purpose to provoke him since he won’t speak.I was so off balance . I remember putting up characters and I’ll say things like what do you even care to get his attention and all . reverse psychology and fall ....... didn’t work .
Oh did I just say it didn’t work ...well , thinking about it now , each time I did, I’d hear “this ain’t you” . “You know this is so far From who you are”. ( there was a constant reminder of my true identity)
I remember a couple of time on the phone with my dad and he’d say Taiwo this isn’t you .You’re usually filled with God’s word than this what is wrong?He could sense it because we usually talk about God,strengthen each other with God’s word but this time he knew something was off
I knew I fed the spirit of complain which gradually ate up my spirit. none the less i kept on seeking God.
I kept seeking . finally I cleared my mind and he humbled me. I tell you it wasn’t until I sought him with my whole heart.
I came empty and all I genuinely wanted was to be in one accordance with the holy spirit .
I came empty and all I genuinely wanted was to be in one accordance with the holy spirit .
It’s been a powerful and humbling experience. I feel God’s presence a lot and this experiences has been changed me. I’ve had severe encounters but I don’t think I’ve had such an encounter as this since my walk with God
I’ve come to understand that you’ve gotta kill every sense of “self” to be filled and be accordance with the holy spirit. I’m a place of you’re the spirit alive and I’m just the body . A place of you and nothing else 
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I give all glory to God and a few people he used to fuel me .I trust he’ll bless and provide them with the strength they need . The moral of this is not till I sought God wholeheartedly and humble my self right before him did I find him.
“You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.”
Jeremiah 29:13 ESV
Jeremiah 29:13 ESV
I pray for every believer dealing with this or whatever it may be for you. I pray God clears your mind https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🙏🏾" title="Folded hands (durchschnittlich dunkler Hautton)" aria-label="Emoji: Folded hands (durchschnittlich dunkler Hautton)"> , silent every noise that needs to be silent out and restores you in Jesus name. Stay blessed and focus. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✌🏾" title="Siegeshand (durchschnittlich dunkler Hautton)" aria-label="Emoji: Siegeshand (durchschnittlich dunkler Hautton)"> https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="☺️" title="Lächelndes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✌🏾" title="Siegeshand (durchschnittlich dunkler Hautton)" aria-label="Emoji: Siegeshand (durchschnittlich dunkler Hautton)">
