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because i really need it right now and i’m sure others do: here is a thread of 100 things i’m still alive for
1: every color of the rainbow and how unique each one is. how each color portrays and influences different emotions like magic. the perfect combination of certain colors that are just so appeasing to the eye. or how they mash together to bring art to nature through sunsets
2: the different kind of airs in different seasons. the way that cold air and warm air smell and feel different in your lungs. how you can walk outside and think “it smells like halloween”,even the cold burning sensation of air while it’s snowing. just having air in your lungs
3: the way your sheets feel after an exhausting day of doing your best. it has to be the most relaxing spot after working your ass off the whole day. a time for you to let all the stress roll off your shoulders, absorb into the sheets, and you can be proud for completing the day
tw vomit but good //
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4: the feeling of relief of being sick for days because of something you ate or drank and throwing it up, the quick fade of pain to relief from getting a harmful substance out of your stomach after it’s bugged you for so long. the relaxation afterwards.
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4: the feeling of relief of being sick for days because of something you ate or drank and throwing it up, the quick fade of pain to relief from getting a harmful substance out of your stomach after it’s bugged you for so long. the relaxation afterwards.
5: streamers and youtubers, the excitement from seeing a notification from them that they uploaded or went live. the anticipation of waiting for a premiere to start. the disbelief of when these idols respond to you or notice you in chat. all their reassuring words. they love you
6: the feeling of a good stretch after waking up. the feeling of turning sides and feeling your back pop all the way up your spine. the little movements you do every time you wake up, starting at pointing your toes all the way to the arms above your head and your fingers extended
7: going outside at 2 am, if it be on your front lawn or even on the roof and just sitting in the grass or on the pavement. eye shut, as the silence of everyone dead asleep and rustling of trees from a soft breeze engulfs you in a bubble of calmness and security. the lack of sun
8: when spring starts to turn to summer and freckles appear on some faces and smiles appear on small children at parks. the scream laughing and splashing of pool party’s from down the road or while walking past the local pool. the feeling of sun on the whites of your eyes
9: the feeling of getting lost in your favorite video game or movie or tv series for the first time. the amazement of finding that new series or game you instantly fall in love with. the satisfaction of finding a character to relate to. finding that someone to watch/play with
10: that really good dream you get every few months of so. the ones that are so vivid and so pleasant that you wished that it had actually happened. the ones where you meet your idol or hang with fiction characters for a bit. getting a chance to escape the reality we live in
11: online friends, and the weird friendship bond you guys make. the excitement of getting to meet them for the first time. how awkward it is in the first hour of meeting them and then getting progressively more comfortable with each other until you act like siblings/lovers
12: those really REALLY hot shower where you sit in there and let it steam up. when you’re ready, you hop in and mid shower the snot building up in your nose starts to loosen and you blow your nose in your hands. you’re disgusted but you laugh it off and wash it down the drain
13: the feeling of a long cuddle with someone you love, or even a pet you love. especially while listening to your favorite playlists or watching your favorite movies. just melting into a couch or bed with them and forgetting all your worries for a little bit
14: the little leap in your heart when kissing them for the first time. the fireworks that go off around your head when your lips collide. the feeling of having that someone. even if you don’t have someone now, there’s plenty of fish and everyone should have someone to love
15: screaming at the top of your lungs and letting all the build up stress and anger all out in anyway you can. hitting a pillow with angry tears falling down your face and the feeling of relief or adrenaline afterwards. the bottle of rage finally being released
16: graduating. the day you get to walk away from that building or buildings that has caused you so much stress and much more emotions then it really should and leave it all behind. the freedom of copy and paste teaching and toxic friend cliques and shitty school lunches.
17: that stuffed animal or old toy in the corner of your room that you forgot about. because you may have forgotten about it or grown out of it, it was there for you when you were a child and is still here for you now. engaging with it and feeling the nostalgia all over again
18: that one article of clothing you look like a fucking GOD/GODDESS/HIGHER POWER in. the confidence boost of wearing that clothing in public and feeling like the most attractive best version of you that has ever existed. the feeling of superiority and just overall confidence
19: that one song you use to play on repeat in the summer of 2016. the feeling of listening to that song again and remembering back to simpler times when “the whip” and the “nae nae” were trending and dabbing wasn’t cringy. looking back at how stupid we were then but missing it
20: your dog,cat, or pet of any kind. they would miss you every single day of their tiny little pet lives and would wake up everyday expecting you to be home again.they love you so very much and even if they passed away, you have to stick around for them if you can’t for yourself
21: your heartbeat racing in your chest when you come back from a run or a sport you do. the feeling of accomplishment and those moments you just stand there breathing hard and thinking “i finally got the motivation to exercise and it fucking sucks, but i did it”
