i really wish i could tell the ikons how they saved my life in 2019, no jokes. and how they are saving it in 2020 too

like i barely have any memories of the first half of 2019 because of how confused and numb things were, but i rmb going on youtube once or twice a week to catch up on ikon content, i rmb june 12th was the worst day of my life in college bc i was so burned out +

and whatever came after that was a mixture of pain but also i was so happy to finally find a group that i could actually relate to. i rmb looking and bobby's verse for climax and he said exactly what u wanted to say to my mom and i was so so sooo emotional it was insane

then once i started to see more of their struggles and hardships i totally felt for them bc you can tell they stood true to themselves... they never tried to change to fit in, they never went against what they believed in, and it really helped me to understand myself better

and it's kinda sad that in 2019 i didn't go home for the holidays cause i was so depressed that i didn't want my parents to see me that way, so i spent my bday (dec 23), christmas and new year by myself and thank god i had the ikons with me

it's not about leaning on them, it's more like... you can see that they are real. you literally can see that that's >them< you know? and to have such beautiful songs, lyrics, to see how they care and worry about each other without painting a fake image rlly got me

and 2020 was a mix of so many things wasn't it if it wasn't for them i wouldn't survive quarantine (i'm still in it btw lol)

moral of the story: ikon saved me because they feel relatable enough for me to look at them and think "if they did it, i can do it too" which is why i only want them to be happy, doesn't matter what they choose to do from now on. i trust them