Me and my little family, our situation has never been amazing. But at least I was able to work enough to cover bills. Now w/the pandemic and increasing racial tension, I don't even feel comfortable working 4x a week.

The nights are bad. Game days are even worse.

I'm one of the most understanding & polite drivers where I work but when I get to the restaurant I'm met w/hostility/iciness. I get to the customer & I'm met with suspicion/hesitation.

I can't change the fact that my skin color & how I present my gender scares & angers ppl.

I have been lowkey AND highkey accused of stealing, harassed w/parking tickets in places my yt coworkers park every day, threatened w/termination for bein in the ER, and that's all just off the top of my head. There's so many more microaggressions I go thru every day.

I'd get another job if there were any available options that didn't require me to risk my health. But that's what working in customer service is now - a health risk. & from what I can tell, those are the only places that are hiring around me.

Meanwhile, my wife is an international student & has to deal w/racism, transphobia, AND xenophobia, at their school and whenever we go outside. Funds & jobs are scarce for foreign students in the US in general lol Picture how bad it is in the South.

We have asked, pleaded, and begged family members for help in getting thru the madness that is currently our lives. Out of the hundreds of ppl in our extended family combined, only our mami in law has consistently been on our side. And she's overseas She don't even LIVE here.

Idek where I'm goin with this thread. I just. I'm tired. We're both so tired. And we both know that once the election is over, it's only gonna get worse for us down here no matter who wins. And we keep looking for places where we'll be safe and come up dry every damn time.

I wanna be strong for my wife. But I am scared. I am very scared.