I’m currently in a space where everything I do that has to do with interacting with other humans has me convinced I was horrible, offensive, said unintelligent things, etc. & this is maybe a pandemic side effect but

my anxiety likes to make itself known in symptoms of basically every anxiety disorder known in the DSM

depending on its mood. I have been in OCD phases, agoraphobic phases, GAD phases, C-PTSD phases, social anxiety phases, and the band played on

I was awarded a lovely award tonight and a person I admire presented me with the award on Zoom at the ceremony and already I am LOOPING

but I know I’m in this space because the last time I talked to my BFF I sent her a bunch of texts apologizing for what I perceived to be a terrible social slight & she replied... “Oh hon, I don’t even remember you saying that”