i used to write on journals. a lot.

but these days i'm afraid to pick up a pen and my journal to ever put in an entry again.

i started to believe that if i don't say/write it, i won't mean it and i'll forget it in the long run. if i do, it would matter for a long time.

i don't want that. it's baffling, i know.

i recently understood my pevious enrtries were the emotions i bottled up for myself because i was too afraid to share it to anyone. but now, i realized that if i keep pouring out my emotions into paper, they'd exist for a very long time.

they're like tattoos on your mind. you write them on paper but apparently it's like you're embedding it in your mind.

you get me? i don't. i don't get the whole point of this thread.