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Finding things quite hard at the moment. I tried taking a few weeks off twitter, and that did calm me a little, but it was quite boring, lonely perhaps even.
I’m in constant pain, and I can’t stop thinking about my dad. And then there’s all *gestures around* this. And then there’s also *this*. Saying stuff, when everyone is having it hard. That’s a bit shit.
And of course the response is that it’s perfectly ok to say things.
And of course the response is that it’s perfectly ok to say things.
But I’m aware of the tweet > response thing. Like I’ve seen tweets like this, and you can predict the responses, which is also fine. Everything is fine.
I’m far too aware of everything at the moment.
I’m far too aware of everything at the moment.
I sometimes get annoyed on twitter and take a swipe, and there’s no real malice intended, but I think I do it to break things up a bit. Rock the waters to see the boats bounce.
Someone might fall in the water but then at least that’s different.
Someone might fall in the water but then at least that’s different.
Everything feels quite predictable and so I try to mix it up so I don’t go mad. So it doesn’t feel like I’m in a computer simulation, of which I know the outcome because it’s the same every time.
Do you get that? When you know if you say something, it will get this response, and then that will happen, and you can see it all play out. And then it plays out just as you thought, and you think well what was the point of all that?
