My romantic partners always tell me that I act so nonchalant & one even told me he did dumb shit just for me to show some emotion towards him. It doesn’t make sense though. I’m actually the opposite. There’s no in between with me, either I fwu or I don’t.

When I love , I love hard so the minute I have to question your intentions because I notice a pattern is the minute my heartbreaks & now I have to go into safety mode. I guess it’s a trauma response. It’s almost as if I seen it all before & everytime I go against my intuition

By ignoring the pattern i get hurt waaaaaaay more.

I can kinda see now what they mean though. Talking to myself in this thread just made me realize there’s still things from my childhood that play a huge part in my love life. Time to sit with my guides