I feel dead? Not like anything bad. I just feel kind like I'm out of something. Dissociation? Idk, I feel like I havent been interacting with people or something. But I also feel frustrated. Or maybe it that I feel like I finally understand that I had been talking to

People through a screen. Maybe I feel more lonely? But not exactly. Idk what I'm feeling. Maybe out ofplace. Maybe impatient. Or maybe doubt? Dou t of my morals and who I am? Idk. This is such a weird night ramble

Maybe because it's basically an anniversary of a night when my feelings and friendship were invalidated. Maybe cause I was abandoned and i have so many issues I never or will ever know if I'm wrong or not. Or maybe because I feel like I'm not a good person.

Self hatred and shame and guilt. I havent felt this in a while. Most of the time, its self confidence. Now I feel like I'm just not a good person. Idk. I'm not upset or anything. I'm just confused and lost. Probs delete this thread when I'm more mentally awake.