I am such a high functioning mentally ill person some days, I can't even deal with it. It's hard to get support sometimes because 95% of people see me totally together at every juncture.
Even with this anon account, I still don't feel comfortable talking about my real diagnosis. Some people know, but the stigma still sucks, and I feel like my clients would judge me. Getting on the right meds saved my life after years of thinking it was only depression and anxiety
Only two past clients even know I have depression and anxiety! Thankfully, they see me as the success story I am, but it was still risky that they knew while I had their kids in my care. None of my past or present clients know about the third disorder. I've told one work friend.
Ok, fuck, fine, I am just going to say it because I have been dying to admit when I feel manic on Twitter sometimes, and I just hate hiding. I am bipolar 2. It took a long time to get a proper diagnosis because my natural personality already mirrors the disorder.
I've had the same psychiatrist since 2003. I got the meds sorted between 2011 and 2013. I haven't had a relapse into a "state" since. I have taken 1 personal day in almost 6 years in childcare, and it was around the anniversary of one year of my marriage ending.
I've had anxiety and been depressed while working, but I have never felt manic. It nails me sometimes 5 minutes after I get off, and then I mostly stay offline and am fine in the morning after a good sleep and a double dose of meds. Therapy taught me how to deal and I'm thankful.
You can follow @CALCocoReads.
Tip: mention @twtextapp on a Twitter thread with the keyword “unroll” to get a link to it.

Latest Threads Unrolled: