losing a parent at a young age is truly something i wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.

the trauma seeps into EVERYTHING. friendships, familial relationships, romantic relationships, ALLAT. and the sickest part is you wont even notice....until you do.

it literally trickles into everything you do.... and when you’re avoidant as FUCK like i was, it creeps up on you. it shows up in everything you do until you choose to look at it directly.

the abandonment issues, attachment issues PERIOD, being avoidant, intense mood swings, completely isolating yourself, that savior/victim complex..........

it’s a lot....way too much. i’m praying for those who have lost bc i know that weight you carry all to well. it is okay not to be okay even if it was 30 years ago. time does not heal, we do.