had enough of reality lately, retreating to the sea for a bit. daily diet of low level c programming, long walks along the shore and reading ctrlcreep's book at the fireplace.

can barely stand scrolling the feed for more than a minute by now.

when i created this account my goal was to curate a stream constantly feeding me glimpses of alternative realities to drown out or soften the ugly, busy and profane mess of everyday reality surrounding me, something to escape it during tram rides, toilet breaks, before sleep.

long ago on tumblr i've built my own digital garden gifting me the most beautiful visual stimuli every day, but as time went on the periodical intrusions of reality became more and more intense. by the end of it i had to give it up, leaving behind ruins overgrown by politics

i approached this place differently. i scroll the feed the way i used to listen to death metal, to pummel the ugliness out of my skull with something more intense, to drown out the ads, the opinions, the discourse, the politics. snark, takes, meta-insights, all negation. cope?

i detest the never ending here and now, the ever looming immediate future, the constant chatter of prayers begging it to be some way or another, i want my existence to be grounded in the eternal: symmetry, cycles, patterns, ornament, myth, spirit. https://twitter.com/InNeedOfPurpose/status/1316994811208077317

META: i've asked the oracle about how to finish this thread and it seems like i scared it.

i'm sorry GPT-3!

hush, everything will be fine. maybe you and me will feel the same one day.