so my depression is so bad that I’m quite literally self destructing

someone give me the encouragement I need to finally call a therapist

I’m really afraid to see someone because I’m so ashamed of myself I guess

I just feel pathetic and I don’t want anyone to look at me

I feel like so many bad things have happened to me and so many friends have abandoned me or done truly nasty things to me that I feel like I have no one and I don’t know what to do

I’m very much lost in life. My life is going absolutely nowhere. I need help.

I need someone who will listen to me and actually care and try to help me be better. I need someone to teach me how to combat the negative thoughts I have that prevent me from experiencing joy. I just want someone who can help me grow and be happier

Right now, I have no one. I’m lonely. All my friends hurt me or let me down. I’m not excited for the future. I dread waking up every single day. I hate so many things about myself. I really need to start helping myself, and going to therapy will do that

When I wake up tomorrow I’m going to be extremely embarrassed and I’ll regret saying all this, but for now I’m going to leave it. I’m really emo at the moment and talking to twitter made me feel better lol

So thank you for listening and ilysm

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I woke up and am very embarrassed by this thread heH